My World

okie i know i created like TWO journals and deleted both of them lol...but i've decided to keep this one :D

okie alot has happened...
finally finished uni n tafe and now on holidays...THANK GOD
hmmm my computer crashed and therefore everthing got destroyed :(
finally today we bought a new one after i got a HUGE lecture on not dowloading HEAPS of songs lol
Went to Malti aunties house for Prem uncles sharaad....Malti aunty was crying so much...it just reminded me of my Mami wen my Mama passed away and we stayed over to do the sharaad with her....man...too much memories...sigh...
Im so bored ..............................anyway i might go n sleep now....good night!

Yay you got a new comp na hehe - now you can come from there =)

Aditi - Danu misssy you!

Where are you baba uff ho - we need to talk =$

awwwwwwwwwwwww welcome back adi miss ya
now i go sumone else journal to read i love it hehe

hey adi sup????? :D

wow adi got a new journal!! yayyy! lol:D

Hey danu adi missy u toooooo :( heheh we WERE talkin and then U disappeared SOMEWHERE missy i need to talk to u tooooooooo ............hey ruby!!! how r u? im good ....its sooooo hot here!! am dyinggggg........HEY JANA..:D nothing much just on holidays.....getting bored already...sigh....HEY REENIIIIIII how r u???

Hmmm i want buy some more skirts .....i bought three atm....Blue...checks ...black one...coz im getting tired of my jeans...okie i still love it...but i want to wear skirts as well :D

Went to Anita bua's house on sat after the sharaad...man my parents r unbelieveable they told Raju and everyone my retirement unit wali joke...omg i was sooo embrassed...Raju bhaiya was laughing way too hard i was like bhaiya i just paid u out big time n ur'e still laughing GOD lol...but yeah it was funny...they couldnt beleive that i could talk that much .....hidden talents...hmmm maybe my horoscope is wrong i should have been a Gemini- two faced person ...o well....we brought home three dvds from their place- wedding songs (two) and Mehendi a pakistani tv series based on a family who has four daughters and their marry their four daughters off on the same day....nice story actually...one of the wedding song dvd has Bumbro and that dvd still skips coz we used that dvd to learn our dance from..

I finally watched Viruddh and Koi Aap sa...i liked both of them...viruddh was so sad....but had a good storyline...i thought koi aap sa did as well...some bits were stupid (hey wat would u expect in Aftab's movies ?:p) but some bits were good...mum really likes Aftab's voice and Jimmey Shergills (after watching Yahaan) i was like hmmm aftab's voice lol okie...nice mom...

Right im drinking Lemonade from a Tall glass with heaps of ice...shhh thos glasses are for vistiors only hehe but i dont care coz im way to lazy to look for some normal looking glass and drink from it :p hey im on holidays yaar

Hey danu adi missy u toooooo :( heheh we WERE talkin and then U disappeared SOMEWHERE missy i need to talk to u tooooooooo ............hey ruby!!! how r u? im good ....its sooooo hot here!! am dyinggggg........HEY JANA..:D nothing much just on holidays.....getting bored already...sigh....HEY REENIIIIIII how r u???
I am so sorry dear I got DC my net has been shuffiling so much. Oh oh have u seen that drama mehndi?

aww its okieee ur back :D n me talkin to u :D
yeah i have...finally finished...mums watchin the begining...

Such a sad drama na - :(

yeahhh it is :( but teaches u a very valuable lesson yaar

accha - what did you learn :p

that never get married with ur sisters on the say day!! :p

hahah - areeey why not :p

heheheheeheh too much problems after a while

hehe awww - well - zaroori tow nahi hai :p

hehehehehehehe trueeeeeeeeeeeeee :p

haanjeee putttar

1 din mein bahoot kuch

Omg OMg..howcome i missing out here..
damnn i dint knwo u had one..

well my is still the cooolest then any1 lay!

Nice Journz Jiya...umm nice stuff in it :D...
ummm oye neal and nikki on this friday...

heyyyyy kulfi!
no mines the coolest:p
wat nice stuff.....man my lifes so bloody boring....BORING!
yeahhh we should go n seeee...im dying to see that movie..............
Hey raj...lol ek din bahoot kuch kya?
Oye puttar ki bachi:p

Awww the serial is sooo sad.....hey danu u have to tell his Seb (um if thats how u spell his name lol-the doctor who's married to sajjan) dies? wat happens after that...tellllll meeeeeeeee i wanna know!!!

Okie i woke up early....did the housework...brushed n showered.....now im here :D havent eaten yet....will eat some crackers n dip....less fattening LOL aree have to maintain my figure ji:p hmmmmm wen mum wakes up im gonna ask her where did she put the mehendi packet i wanna put some on my hands....coz AM BORED...o god last year this time i was working *sniff**sinff* not anymore!!!!!hmmmm will have my hair trimmed this friday....hopefully if my sis doesnt forget to book me ....

adi di
missed u :(
how have u been jaani?
aww hope all is well
its been sucha long time since we've talked :(

abey :p

abey kya ji:p
hey rani im good how ru?:)

i'm ok
so much better than i always am :p
life is going smoothly so far
so am glad

how r u ji? howz everything? howz life treating u?

aww thats good :)
im good....bit hot....so yeah....u?

adi adi adi i heard u dumped faffy :(

jana jana jana jana yeah i did :D

he was getting soo boring n not to mention OLD and FAT hehehhe

aww thats good :)
im good....bit hot....so yeah....u?

awwww
hope ur not sick
and if u are u better take care of urself
cause i'm worried bout u

well i'm really freezing cold...we got our first big snow today
hoping 4 no school tomorrow....lets see!
btw whoz faffy? :p
come stop by at my journal 2!!
u 2 jana didz

nah im not sick...
dont worry about me im fine its just its very hot here so yeah :)
aww thats good...

faffy is Aftab

oh ok!
well u take care!
oh aftab! hehe!
btw come stop by @ my journal!

lol adi....... but i still think faffy's much cuter than abhi :9:

awww oh kay rani :D

yeah..i will u too....
take care

i think abhi's more cuter :p
stop by in THE QUEEN's JOURNAL :p :p
u please take care 4 me!

heyyyyy kulfi!
no mines the coolest:p
wat nice stuff.....man my lifes so bloody boring....BORING!
yeahhh we should go n seeee...im dying to see that movie..............
Hey raj...lol ek din bahoot kuch kya?
Oye puttar ki bachi:p


on monday we are sooon there

hope the cinemas is all ours..:D..

plus dream on mien is way better...

kuch nahi
just speaking abt convo

Heu dude
Good Morning..
aaj early early uthe..koi khaas baatji..?

i always wake up early..its just i come or i dun online :)

true True...
man i gotlil memo

acha
abt wht?

abt stuff...i hardly remember anything

geez
seems tujhe vaccations ka nasha chad gaya hai

vaccation suxxxx real bad....

enjoy karo yaar
waise bhi free time jyada nahi milta kabhi

free time succcccccccckz wen u got nothin to do...

then do something... kuch bhi karo
shan se karo

nothin to do....

there r many things u can do
do ur favr thing.. dance

honestly didz i knw how u feell 2day i bunked off skool and after i came back from da airport i was like DEAD coz i was sooo dayummm freakin boreeddddd honestly i was like am going to skool then remembered ma mum sed ma mate didnt go i ended up going to ma mate house
honestly am dreading Thursday it Teacher Training i need to do summet on da day !!!

Hey guys :)
im bored as well...plus too much tension

aww adi di
tension kyun? :/

oh just some stuff

oh ok
u take care though

there r many things u can do
do ur favr thing.. dance

wow is dancing my fav..lool
dance karungi toh seeda uppar pochungi..wihtout boarding pass..lol

anywaz whats up people..
and hey jiya watcha u doing..//


IS THIS BURNING..AN ETERNAL FLAME>....

hey...nothing much...yeah it is kulfi lol.......

omg my cuzzie rang today from USA....Nikhil bhaiya...he just surprised me....i was like wow....bhaiya omg...hey....lol

awww tats sweeet...

yeah....sweet n surprising

awwww thats sweeet

awwww thats sweeet atles ur cousin ring u mines wont even bother unless i do or ma mum does honestly !!!!

awwww ruby! *hugs*

yay finally ....im going to put mehendi on my hands....yay...i soaked the mixture last night...so i will put it on today! cant wait yay!!! :D

adi adi adi adi...... omg lol i wanna see ur mehendi :60:

show me okies

hey guys lol sorry my sis did take a pic.....but its not letting her send it to me....strange!

YAY i passed my units....well two of them lol.....man i got a 5 and a 6 soooo happy!!!! 2 more results...me waiting!

congratz di
am proud of u :p

thanks rani :)

^dont need 2 thank me
btw how r u?
aww u have a headache
take rest jaan :(

omg jiya wow wow...

man my OP coming 17th only three days to gay yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy

:) rani

hey kulfi....good luck! :D

i just cant sleep these days...even at nights...i just cant...wen i do then i have dreams...about that person...its so bad...hate it....y is god punishing me like this huh? was it my fault? lol everyone says it was my fault....everyone....u know wat...im so sick of livin like this....i just wanna move interstate or somewhere far.....but then wen i think about it....im not a coward who'll just run away ...its my fight...i will face it....he doesnt own this place.....but yeah...all those memories....i dunt wanna live in this suburb anymore...wanna move out.....

i never really thought that the person who made me smile again...made me live again...would do something like this.....y?
i guess this verse really goes with it:

Zindagi mein koi kabhi aaye na raba
Aaye jo koi to phir jaaye na raba
Dene ho agar mujhe baad mein ansoo
To phele koi hasae na raba

I dont think i will ever get over this....i tried harder...i did...
Jaate jaate koi meri khushiyo ko legaye
Suni suni aankhiyo ko ghum koi degaya
Yaad teri aayi hai...tu harjaai hai
Inta bhi koi saatye na raba...

Its killing me.....y cant i control my emotions..................

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm shopping today!

^^jaan kya howa yaar? :(

i cant go on like this....i cant....it hurts way too much....im loosing my battle.....y.....y me ....y me again huh? y? y isnt this stopping..it hurts way too much.....everyday is a constant reminder to me......everyday......

adiiiiiiiii di please tell me kya howa
i'm worried
ur making me cry right now
:(

for him my pain is nothing...y would it huh? y would it? he never loved me....he never loved me...even if he says he did....its just not true.....

i hate myself for this...i hate myself for this.....i dont know y i still love him..y am i always being punished ....y?

adiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
:(:(:(:(

all this time.....he was lying to my face....all this time....i should have listenned to my inner self...i should have.....y? he lies to me...everyday he lied...and then he comes up with some lame excuse such as I LIED TO HIM everytime...i never loved him....i cheated on him.....and he leaves me.....god....hes a player....but then y do i feel like im making another mistake....y do i feel like that he did love me....y? arghh i hate myself

aww
arey adi di
mujhe bhi nahi batagoi
kya howa?
:(

y didnt anyone tell me....oh god y did i listen to him...y? i dont wanna live anymore....i dont...i dont have anyone to listen to me...............y did he do that huh?

adi di i'm crying now
:(
omg dont say all this bad stuff
u have to live for me for ur family for ur friends for urself :(

hes so confusing.....he loves making me miserable.....first he tells me ofcourse i love u then he tells me i do love u but i cant give u my love? i only loved her.... (which was understandable...i had that too for someone else....but i was over him....) then after few days...he says to me he never loved me....he only loves money? what the hell?...huh....then out of the blue he accuses me of cheating....misleading him...huh....he said to me that i didnt love him....

wtf?
omg
money?
gdi is everything in the world money?
wht a looser
omg adi di :(
this is so sad :(

why cant i make myself hate him? why cant i? after wat he did....still y cant i make myself hate him..............WHY NOT? ADITI WAT IS WRONG WITH YOU....YOU ARE JUST HURTING YOURSELF.......i trusted him....i thought okie he did have a past history...he will change....he didnt.....i thought okie...he wont leave me...eventhough he kept on sayin that i might leave him one day.......but he left me...just like that...

im making myself sick....i need to stop it before i will do something

"What goes, comes around" is it neccessary? "she" broke his heart...."that otherperson" broke mine.....and now he broke my heart.....is it fair?

oh god im just dying.....y did u have to make so emotional god? y? y cant i just be like a stone....no feelings....nothing.....

i keep promising myself that i will not cry...i will not care about him....i will not think about him...but i still do....god....i need to stop thinking about myself....i need to start thinkin about my parents.......im back to square one now....i used to be so happy...always laughing...always smiling...always cheerful....it all changed from dec last year....i got really depressed...and then suddenly out of the blue he came in my life and made me happy again....and now he did the samething.....

im so tired...

he didnt even call me or even emailed me to ask me if i was dead or alive....o god...stop it

Lol i got an email today..hmm its funny....o well...

Okie big day today...Rani jij, Raj and Anita bua r comin over for lunch! mums making roti's lol i know im supposed to be helping :p but i cant be bothered coz i cleanned the entire house, bathroom etc etc...mums makin my fave subjee's-Palak Panneer and something else lol....man shomal's online! :D she's goin to see bluffmaster today....lucky bum! yeah shes went to visit her native (also mine) man i miss her

I really dunno where Rash is these days...hmmm...its kinda werid...o well i miss him too heaps...Vee's in melb...dunno wens she coming back....i hope rash still remeba's that we r goin to movies after vee returns....hmm...lol i still remeba how rash used to be all shy around vee once...man lol...how he used to stare at her and then walk past us or bump into me and say Hey Sis how r u going? Have u eaten? and how Varun and him spiked the fruit punch at Rani's engagment wen the lights went out...and kinda got drunk..and were taken pics of us ..o man ....good old days....
and how he msged me and asked me hey gf wats vee's number...i msged him back and asked him hmmm ghar wala yeh mobile..he goes um mobile yaar lol...

okie rani jij and anita bua r over....we were just discussing how GUYS change so quickly wen they r in a relationship....and yeah how at times girls do the same..rani jij was saying how guys who doesnt have a sis dont respect women...and how guys always do sweet talks and make us girls go LATOO on them....i was like hmmm y is she talkin about me lol....rani jij told me make u dont do that okie..she told the only problem we girls have is that we tend to give a 100% -we shouldnt do that we should be like guys...look...talk and learn....guys do the same...u tend to think aww he wont do that...HELL NO they do that more! make sure u get a guy who has a sis okie..coz they know that feeling n stuff...i felt like sayin to her...geez jij i did love a guy who had a sis...but he broke my heart....so do u really think i should listen that crap?

Happy 19th Bday Julie!
Hey yeah its one of my besti's 19th! wow time flies so quickly damn u'll be 20 next year! lol I hope u have a blast mwah!

I dont know why today i wish that i had an older bro as well as an older sis...i dont know y...i didnt realize yesterday that i still had Hate myself-seriously as my personal message...rash was on and he asked me btw y do u hate urself...wats wrong sis..i was like oh no! damn y did i forget to delete that message lol....i just told him its nothing...he goes sure sure there is something ur just not sayin it....

Hate raj so much!!!!!

Yay i went to Toombul today! shopped like crazy! bought myself a top, a bag and some crystals lol....yeah kinda strange but loved it....ate chinesse as well...was sooo yummy!

Damn while we were shopping CBD and North side were hit by an massive storm....came back home...my room was drenched :( coz i didnt close the window before we left lol yeah PAPA gave me a big lecture i was like omg why suddenly the world has turned against me??????

oh well my sis is cooking kashmiri butter chicken SAUCE with tofu lol...yeah no meat u see....Lala rang i answered the fone god he couldnt stop laughing lol

well this morning we all woke up early and went to the beach....it was cool....came back home...had brekkie...and mor clean up followed...was okie...

It TaKeS aN mInUtE tO lIkE sOmEoNe
An HoUr To LoVe SoMeOnE
BuT A lIfEtImE to FoRgEt SoMeOnE :broken_he

Got my eyebrows done today....yeah was really out of shape lol...wasnt too hot today :lightbulb

Okie theres a limit of Paranoishness (if that is a word lol) and i think i have crossed that limit! Im getting freaked out very easily -which is not a good sign....okie who would get scared after watching SURFACE? or SMALLVILLE(today's episode)? It's offical im paranoid! Im way to scared to watch telly at night if its anything to do with horror...if i do watch something...i have to switch on all the lights in house to get to my room..and i keep turning and watching behind me....WERID i know! man i was watching THRESHOLD....got its so freaky! I literally had to switch on all the lights to wash dishes and i had to switch on my bedrooms light to actually feel safe! im lossing it! my rooms light's still on....god...

Xmas this sunday...and my brain still hasnt resgistered this wonderful festive season! very strange...well anyway

Merry Xmas in advance!

Awwwwww....been watching too many scary movies.... :p WOW...been ages since I spoke to you. Hope everything is going good. :)

Hey dadi!!! :p yeah i know! yeah everything goin good...hows uni? im on holidays...boring as lol...anyway tc i gtg n sleep! mwah

heyy adi i knw wht u mean abt how u feel like ur going paronaid
man even i get reaked out by da slighty lil things nowadays

Awwwww sucks doesnt it?

My Pics
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My hand and my engagment ring!

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My Ring

I feel sick and i know y....how could he? i knew something was wrong....but this majorily? oh god....im just feeling sick...its so sick....so sickening....if telling someone about the truth is wrong...then knowing the whole truth and acting blind n letting that person fall is majorily wrong! i cant believe some ppl can do that so easily and still act so inncocent.....but ruining someones life like this.....takin revenge from other inncocent girls....hooking up with more than 3 or 5 girls and using them...is wrong....
i just told her the truth its up to her....and im not a bitch....im not....i never was and i never will be....par haan....now u have said it to me ...i will show u wat a real bitch is...u just wait and watch...wat a crazy bitch i am!

adiiiiiiiiiiii it says engagement ring??
wht dat??
u gettin marriedddddd???

yeah ruby :)
y cant everyone at over their past? y cant they just let go n move on? y cant they?they r just hurting ...majorily....u try to help them....but they just dont want to be helped....how can god watch that? y does he do something about it?

he hates me soo much...i guess i deserve it....maybe i shouldnt have said anything...he hates me...i feel so sick....just wanna go away from here.... :(

i hate mondays sooo much...everything BAD happens on monday and ruins my entire week :(

adii u getting married???
wow seriously???
awww adi dont feel dont just try to let go of it and fink about the future u cant think ov the future if u still hold onto the past let go
u wont gain nufin from living in the past

just engaged ruby! :D

my chest pains.....couldnt sleep all night

man take medicine

yeah heheh

adi di am i really bossy???
btw take care of urself and please get well soon
btw whts with the marriage????? :confused:

good adi hehe
btw congratss agen lool

congrates jiy a;D

aww

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wheres aditi these days?

aww thanks rani merry xmas to u too!
im here ruby :D

I got my hair cut! its so nice...love it! got layered....love it!

rash, raj (rajeev)and vee went to the city to watch a movie...we watched cheaper by the dozen two lol coz it was vee's choice as we were givin vee a treat lol....rash me n raj went by bus...saw some familiar places....like toowong...and Mt Cootha...got abit saddy but rash and raj made me laugh instantly...was awesome then...i told them that tanisha studied here in brisbane's UQ they were like WAT omg r u kidding lol.....

reached city....both boys took me for a shopping spree...i got sooo damn tired lol walked around the city ...met up with vee....more shopping....them met up with my sis ....after that we went to have lunch...i wanted to watch the legend of zorrobut it screened at 1.10 and there was noway we could have made to that...coz we didnt buy the ticket and line was HUGE...i ate from Nando's...rash bought vee;s lunch him n raj ate subway...then we had like 40mins so we went to play pool...hate that game lol....then we finally made it to the movies...man the cinema was PACKED didnt expect that! o well...loved the movie...there were few young teens sitting in our row felt like slappin them...they were so loud..and BLOND lol...finally wen the movie finished we went to drop vee off to the station then met my sis ...we went to the bus stop....rash and raj went thru boardway....me n sis were on the bus wen i saw that person driving his car..i was like WOHA...wish granted aye lol...was werid...

awww wow dat one day u had soem fun awww
glad u had some fun man i wanted 2 go shopping 2day but ma ankle still sore and i need 2 look after ma bros hehe

yeah ruby i did too! :D
awwwww take care hun...get well soon! mwah

Merry Xmas Everyone! ;)
so how was everyones xmas eve last night? mine was very eventful...man it was so hot yesterday...damn...anyway we went shopping during the day i bought myself a crinkle skirt looks mad! we then went home...had lunch i came online...spoke to kulfi n raj....then bumed around the house...had shower....got dressed we went to kavita's place last night-was awesome. Vee n I arrived at the same time...we greeted everyone rashnan was playin pool- as usual! then we just talked...gosspied actually lol....then around 10ish rashnan, vee, raj and i decided to go for a walk...we didnt tell anyone at home lol so at first it was rashnan, vee n me...then kalpana came...then raj and rajat lol...rashnan said it would be so funny if raj got lost!...as soon as we reached the roundabout raj goes hey im goin home okie we were like okie (maybe he got scared-rashnan said that lol) so us five kept on going...we made a circle around mcdowall and then headed home n then the drama began.....anita bua was panicking n lookin for raj...she asked us oh where is he rash goes didnt he go home...bua goes no he went lookin for u guys! we were like oh shit...holy crap...raj is bad with direction omg...it happened to be that raj went left instead of right lol...but we found him...so we all went home...nitasha went off at rash...i went inside my sis went off at me...anita bua went off at raj lol sashi aunty went off at kalpana only vee n rajat surived lol.....but it was fun....n our parents did stop talkin about our 'WALK' all night! rash n i were like geez stop it! lol...so i guess we all will remeba this year's xmas eve forever!

going to Rashnan's house today for lunch! yeah i did cry last night lol

man today was so damn hot!
went to rash's place for lunch...was awesome....our parents teased us about the WALK ---AGAIN! man anita bua was after my handbag lol coz i kept on walkin in the house with my handbag on my shoulders so she teased me about it lol....i ate PAN for the first time in my life...um the actual leaf with stuff in it...was nice loved it.....
anyway the chrisse get together was awesome! :D

i watched bits of shaadi no.1...its like masti

loooool adi u dotn eat paan???
haha man i always do but not wiv da leaf dat only when am dead bored hehehe
awwww

awwwwwwwwww adi nice xmas eve heheheh awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

hey ruby
awwww no mum doesnt allow us to eat pan....lol...but i ate that yesterday at my cuzzies place! :D

sooooooooooooooooooo tired....went shopping ALLL day! my feets r killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!........an yway we all went rash..me...mami...jij...nitasha....mama....mum...a nd papa....we went to DFO first...lol i was just annoying him...so i took to this some bikni shop (forgot the name) and i was like sooo rash which one should i get.....he just looked me n goes...AS IF U WEAR THEM.....dont u dare wear them or else i will disown u lol....but yeha my wifey can wear them for me :D i was like um yeah...lol....bought myself an pair of mad looking sunnies.....looks mad....then wen just us (me mum papa n jiji) went to Toombul jiji did her shopping we then went to Stafford City....ate fasta pasta....then came home...so tired....

listening to rang de basanti's songs..like the title song....starts as Ding ding ding...lol...very catchy!

awww adi really??
ma mum dont liek me eating em and when i eat iit wiv da leaf thing she shouts hehe but i cant help it i need to now lol after i eat summet i always go and eat pan lool hehe
dad like teeth is gna get ruined mum liek skool tomorrow hehe

yeahhh awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww heeheheheh its yum! :D

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hotttttttt!
watched king kong today dont think i'll be able to sleep tonight lol!
went to habour town yesterday shopped heaps.......so tired

omg there was a roach in comp room! i got scared so i turned off the comp and ran to my room lol! :eek:

aisa koi zindagi mein aaye,
joh zindagi ko zindagi banaye(3)
thode khushiyaan ho thode ansoon ho
aur zara zara pe muskuraye
aisa koi zindagi mein aaye,
joh zindagi ko zindagi banaye(2)
thode khushiyaan ho thode ansoon ho
aur zara zara pe muskuraye
aisa koi zindagi mein aaye,
joh zindagi ko zindagi banaye(2)
dilon jaan se joh mujhpe mare
sirf mujhse mohabbat kare
mere khwabon mein khoya rahe
mere kaandho pe soya rahe
mere liye duniya bhulaye
mere dardo gum bhi uthaye
aisa koi zindagi mein aaye,
joh zindagi ko zindagi banaye
lamha lamha umar baat le
meri tanhayian kaat le
har ghadi bas mera naam le
ladkhadayon joh main thaam le
mere saare sapne sajaye
meri palko mein ghar banaye

aisa koi zindagi mein aaye,
joh zindagi ko zindagi banaye
thode khushiyaan ho thode ansoon ho
aur zara zara pe muskuraye
aisa koi zindagi mein aaye,
joh zindagi ko zindagi banaye(2)
thode khushiyaan ho thode ansoon ho
aur zara zara pe muskuraye

Saathiya, saathiya
Maddham maddham teri geeli hansi
Saathiya, saathiya
Sunke humne saari pee li hansi
(Hansti rahe tu hansti rahe
Haya ki laali khilti rahe
Zulf ke neeche gardan pe
Subah-o-shaam milti rahe) - 2
Saundi si hansi teri khilti rahe milti rahe
Peeli dhoop pehenke tum dekho baag mein mat jaana
Bhanwre tumko sab chhedenge, phoolon mein mat jaana
Maddham maddham hans de phir se
Sona sona phir se hans de
Taaza gire patte ki tarah sabz-e-laan par lete hue
Saat rang hai bahaaron ke, ek ada mein lapete hue
Saawan bhaadon saare tumse
Mausam mausam hanste rehna
Maddham maddham hanste rehna
Saathiya, saathiya
Maddham maddham teri geeli hansi
Saathiya, saathiya
Sunke humne saari pee li hansi
Kabhi neeli aasmaan pe chalo ghoomne chale hum
Koi abr mil gaya to zameen pe baras le hum
Teri baali hil gayi hai
Kabhi shab chamak uthi hai, kabhi shaam khil gayi hai
Tere baalon ki panaah mein yeh siyaah raat guzre
Teri kaali kaali aankhen koi ujli baat utre
Teri ek hansi ke badle
Meri yeh zameen le le, mera aasmaan le le
Saathiya, saathiya
Maddham maddham teri geeli hansi
Saathiya, saathiya
Sunke humne saari pee li hansi
Barf giri ho vaadi mein
Un mein lipti simti hui
Barf giri ho vaadi mein
Aur hansi teri goonje
Un mein lipti simti hui
Vaat kare, dhuaan nikle
Garm garm ujla dhuaan, narm narm ujhla dhuaan


Okie this song mentions 5 colours: Green, Yellow, White, Blue and Black! I bet noone ever took notice :D see im smart! lol sorry i was just bored!

Hey everyone Happy New Year may the year 2006 bring you success and happiness!
so all night tonight? lol we r goin to raj's place so dhoom maching there! :D

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aww going to raj's house? :p

HAPPY NEW YEAR MAY 2006 BRING HAPPINESS IN UR LIFE
have great year and wish u all da best

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aww going to raj's house? :p

heehe rani rajeev aka raj is my cuzzie :p

Happy New Year Guys!
last night was fun....we all went to raj's house....vee was there so we were playing games and just partying away....kulfi was the first one to wish me lol i told her wat rash was doin so yeah....but i wished her at 12...the boys went for a drive without tellin us girls :( stupid munda's! anyway....had fun...tired.....

awwwwwwwwwww happy new year lol
awwww cooool

hey ruby! same to u! :D

went to Dip-Anes yesterday bought a dozen hanging bangles (jhumka ones) their r gold! looks amazing! so happy! :D

Yaadein yeh kaisi hai yeh yaadein
jeene nahi deti yeh kambaqt yaadein
soocha tha ki naye saal mein kiski yaad nahi aayege
par yeh kambaqt yaadein saath nahi chodti!
pal pal yaad dilaye
pal pal rulaye
kal uski awaaz sunke aankhe baar aaye aur aansoon bhete gaye.....
kaise bhoolao ...kaise?
rookne pe toh woh rookna nahi
baas yaadein chodh gaya....
yaadein yeh kambaqt yaadein........

okie mondays r very bad days for me! hate it!

okie my sis has gone mad...offically! for the past three days she has been makin me dance on all six songs on which we or just i have i perfomed on recently! we start with Bumbro...Aaya mahi....suraj hua madham (did modelling on it)....radhike tu ne...silsiya yeh chahat ka and wohi din aagaya! we dance for like an hr or two...thank god i cant find my mera mahi bada sona hai cd and thoda sa pagala cd or else she would have made me dance on them as well...NON STOP!

Kitne bedaardi ho tum
Zulmi ho tum...bedaardi ho tum...
phele kehete the...bhool jayo mujhe...tum bahut boori ho...
tumne kabhi mujhse pyaar nahi kiya....chali jaao meri zindagi se!
ab jab main tumhari zindagi se door hogayi hoon....tumhe bhoolane ke koshish kar rahi hoon tab tum doobara meri zindagi mein aana chahete ho?
haan main tumse abhi bhi behaat mohabbat karti hoon....behaat mohabbat par tumse main kabhi nahi kahoongi....tumhara haaq nahi banta...chahe kaho mujhe sangdil...dhokebaaz..koi farak nahi padta...
jab museebat aayi toh mujhe yaad kiya....aur jab pyaar kiya toh mujhe chodh diya?
museebat mein main kaam aayon baas itna haaq hai mera? kaise kehe sakte ho ki tumne mujhse kabhi pyaar nahi kiya....woh jo pal humne saath bitaye....jhoot tha?
theek hai haan karoongi tumhari tarafdari...karoongi tumhari madaat...kyun?
Kyun ki behaat mohabbat karte hai hum tumse...
tumne humse daaga kiya par hum tumse waffai karenge...kasam se!

wow adi u can dance???
cooooooool niceee

hehe yeah ruby! :D

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My mehendi pic....looks awful lol! :D

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Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Aaye ho kis bagiya se, oh oh tum
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Aaye ho kis bagiya se, oh oh tum
Bhanwre o shyam bhanwre, khushiyon ko saath laaye
Mehndi ki raat mein tum, leke saugat aaye

Ho, kaajal ka rang laaye, nazrein utaarne ko
Baaghon se phool laaye, raste sanwaarne ko
Haan, kaajal ka rang laaye, nazrein utaarne ko
Baaghon se phool laaye, raste sanwaarne ko
Haan mehndi ki chhaon mein geet sunayein bumbro
Jhoome nachein saaz gaayein, jashn manayein bumbro
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Aaye ho kis bagiya se, oh oh tum

Khil khil ke laal hua mehndi ka rang aise
Gori hatheliyon pe khilte ho phool jaise
Bumbro bumbro bumbro bumbro
Ae, khil khil ke laal hua mehndi ka rang aise
Gori hatheliyon pe khilte ho phool jaise
Yeh rang dhoop ka, yeh rang chhaon ka hai
Mehndi ka rang nahin, maa ki duaaon ka hai
Is mehndi ka rang hai sachcha, baaki saare jhoote
Haathon se ab mehndi ka yeh rang kabhi na chhoote

O bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Aaye ho kis bagiya se, oh oh tum
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Aaye ho kis bagiya se, oh oh tum

Chanda ki paalki mein dil ki muraad layi
Jannat ka noor leke mehndi ki raat aayi
Mehndi ki raat aayi
Chanda ki paalki mein dil ki muraad layi
Jannat ka noor leke mehndi ki raat aayi
Rukh pe saheliyon ke, khwabon ki roshni hai
Sabne duaayein maangi, rab ne kabool ki hai
Yeh haathon mein mehndi hai ya shaam ki daali, bumbro
Chaand sitaare rehkar aaye, raat ki daali
Oh chanda ki paalki mein dil ki muraad layi
Jannat ka noor leke mehndi ki raat aayi
Rukh pe saheliyon ke, khwabon ki roshni hai
Sabne duaayein maangi, rab ne kabool ki hai
Yeh haathon mein mehndi hai ya shaam ki daali, bumbro
Chaand sitaare rehkar aaye raat ki daali, bumbro

Haan bumbro bumbro shyam rang bumbro
Bumbro bumbro, shyam rang bumbro
Aaye ho kis bagiya se, oh oh tum
Aaye ho kis bagiya se
Bumbro bumbro, oh oh tum
Bumbro bumbro, oh oh tum
Aaye ho kis bagiya se
Bumbro bumbro, oh oh
Bumbro bumbro
Aaye ho kis bagiya se
Oh oh tum
Bumbro bumbro
Bumbro bumbro
Bumbro bumbro
Bumbro bumbro
Bumbro bumbro

last night we got hit by an severe storm...around 11.30pm....i got scared so i went n slept with my parents! *shames* no comments thanks :D

awwwwwwwwwwwwww nice mehandi :D


lol hahahah ... but are u guys okay>>>/?? =O

and can u belive i was wastching action movies lool :8:

yes i can believe that :D

yeah ofcourse u know how tough im :9:

heheh its crap jana:p
im okie heheheheeh

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went shoppin today........so tired bought lipstick and shoes
and then we went to watch harry potter!

wow nicee sketch

cooool what did u fink of HP?

thanks ruby!
oh i loved it! read all the books....huge fan!:D

omg omg! i finally got my advance diploma! :D so happy! man papa was so angry with me this morning ...its coz i was on the net late and went to sleep like at 2am so i kinda slept in this morning and papa got angry lol o well.....then this morning i got my diploma i was so happy! papa was like omg wow congrates yeah his gussa melted away so now i have 2 years to complete my degree and whala i'll be an accountant! then later papa went to get his blood test done for sugar so we waited then we went to stafford ...was papa's idea....yeah was fun....man mum's shoes r really bad....pencil hill were bad.....it took me like 10mins to walk and buy my drink......jesus! anyway.....it was good

it was good seeing him again....heheheheh

him kaun chanewala??

hehe yup chanewala :p
NEVER WEAR PENCIL HILLED SHOE :eek:

yup if u dunno how to walk :P

the thin heels ur talking abt adi?
there greatt looool
hehehe

congrats on ur advanced diploma level

i know how to walk in them:p mum was wearing it before we reached stafford.....she took few steps and goes um here u wear this gimme ur shoes! i went oh okie lol so i wore her shoes....well i balanced myself properly in it i walked gracefully-according to an lady in the mall:p but yeah it took me like 10mins to reach to the Kebab shop lol!

yeah ruby! really thin heels! :D
Thanks ruby! mwah *hugs*

on friday it was my second eldest cuzzies bday! shes like 20 years older than-no kidding:p!
so Arti Jiji

Happy Belated Bday! :cake:

man i thought everything was sorted out-WRONG! i hate it! now he is accusing me as well...............i mean comeon....i didnt say it to her and im certainly not that other chick so pliz! i cried so much last night.....he thought it was funny....he then goes yeah i loved u so much and u lied to me!!!! so u deserved it....i dont get him...i really dont.......y cant all these be sorted out??? im so sick of it!!!! i had dream about this....i saw him..working in his shop...i wen there tried to sort things out....didnt happen i got really frustrated and shot myself! lol...i really dont care now....coz i know wats true and wats not....

We were going to go to sunshine coast but since it was raining arti jiji and jiju decided that we will go to toowomba- first thing came into my mind- green grass....cold chilly air....and fresh air! and Sim....yup....last time wen i went was some 5yrs ago with sim her family and me and my family....we stayed there for a week....had so much fun...ate so many strawberries....pineapples....corns....peanuts.... watermelon! lol....nothing changed abit in these 5yrs...still the same old toowomba......well we had thai for lunch....i was so tired...coz it takes like 2.5hrs to get there (including stopovers) so i was sleepy! but i had fun...Saahil and Araniya (my 1.5yr nephew and 4yr old neice) entertanied me....had fun!

he keeps on sayin i dont give a damn about u...yeah u dont ...i know u dont....but i do....i DO give a damn about u!

Balle balle je soniya de rang dekhlo
bina dor di udh di patang dekh lo

Aj munde hue enhan de malang dekh lo
bina dor di udh di patang dekh lo

Ay kudiyan kudiyan, ay tikhiyan churiyan
kudiyan jawan hath na aawan

hoo

ena pundiyan de maare hue tang dekh lo

Sat sri akal soniyo
sunaao sanuun haal soniyo

oh zaraa nach ke dikhaoo sade naal soniyo
na soch sawal soniyon, ehdi kyun chaal soniyo

eh naara naara naara, eh tikhiyan tejh katara
bijili di nangiyan taaran, oh taara taara taara
je kol ena de aaoge ta pyaar de chakke khaoge

baage vich aaya karo
jado chand chup jaave
tusi mukhda dikhaya karo

Uparvata to khumaar aaye
Haasi ki hakhil kar laya

tu aagaya to bahaar aayi
haseen ho gaye nazare saare


mala vich phul Tangeya
umraan lang chali aan
par joban nahin langeya
----BRIDE AND PREJUDICE----

Miss You
I still remeba that night when u came to meet me…a week after my bday…yeah it still makes me tingle and smile…u couldn’t find the address so u drove around urself…u surprised me…u came exactly on time….u rang me up and said…where r u? I can’t find u…im scared lol! So my frd Jodie dropped me off…….we drove around for abit…u asked me adi how do we get out from here……I just said well keep driving I’ll tell u! lol we went into a no through road and u just looked at me and said ADI ! fine I’ll show u wat I can do now….u tickled me! U knew I was very ticklish-meannie! We just driving again….u spotted a park and said okie lets go there….so we parked in the carpark- library carpark and went on the swings…u kept on tickling and I tickled u back! But u weren’t that ticklish-meannie! So we went back into the car and sat there and talked…the weather was just perfect….light rain….dim lights and cool breeze flowing….time just passed…..next thing I know –my frd Jodie comes and parks her car next to ours-u just ducked and started giggling…I had to stop myself my laughing coz u were just bright red lol! So one advice never show ur frds ur man’s car their come looking for u lol! Okie so after they left….we talked more…u were writing ur name on my hand wen the COPS came! This time I was scared! Lol after they left we had a laughing fit! U asked me if I had a lip gloss coz ur lips were peeling…I said no back I do have lipstick…u said don’t tell me…dark red or pink one? I slapped u no its not red or pink it’s a peachy colour! U said okie gimme me …so I gave it to u….hehehe u looked so cute wen u were putting that one….then u said to me…hey come here I want to put it on ur lips so I said okie…u were like making faces while applying it on! Looked so cute! U then asked me hey do u have that powder thingy? I said oh u mean foundation?:p u said yeah that! I gave it to u and started applying it to my face …my nose had more powder on than my cheeks! U said u look cute now…I grabbed u and kissed u ..u said ewww I got ur lipstick ew ew heheh! Then u dropped me off near the church…I really didn’t wanted u to go….

y did things between us change.........y? i guess i do deserve it....i cant hate u...i just cant...so i hate myself...with u life was complete but without u im imcomplete....i miss u so much..........im just Shattered...yeah once again...but this time real bad.........

Hey Adi....how r u ? been long time that i havent talked to u . i hope u r doing fine. how is studies?

hey jiay piya..
wats happening..
*toothpaste dropping on skirt*

omg i didnt had breklkie yet ...lool yh brushing my teeth
and typing sucha multi tasked girl lool..

did u had urs yet..huh...anywaz howcoe,m u not on msn...

i always feared that if i told everyone about u.......i will lose u....thats wat happened.........
i accepeted u no matter how u were...wat u did...no matter how u lied to me...how much u made me cry....i still loved u....and i still do...

if this is my punishment....okie i accept it....

Adi r u alright? it looks like u r talking to urself....

i hate fighting with u....its always me left in tears n pain....

hey sahar
im alright...yeah im okie lol
yeah just babbling thats all...
im on semster break for well a month now...so how r u? hows school?

hey kulfi chilled icy kulfi :D
nothing happening yaar
we bought a new tv so helping mum with it thats y im not on msn!
WOW multi tasking...aye haye nice che!
im hungry as well...no havent eaten :(

Omg...new tv..wow....
u got dish im soo coming over now..
ohh ok u shud eat yaar....take a break take a ktikat
no im not eating kitkat im eating grapes :D

yeah u should! well we might soon! lol i will eat...MUMMY!
yummmmmmmm i love grapes!
arghhhhhhhh its frustrating...hate assembling this...................................

alrighty gtg now mwah bye kulfi!

wen she accused me...i didnt feel this bad....but last night wen he said that.....i felt like dying.....i still do....i hate myself....

aww
adi di :(
hey!

hey rani :)
damn im feelin feverish........

haha awwwwwwwww
heyy adii hun how are u?
long time no chat on msn nowww
how u doing and how is HE doing?

hey rani :)
damn im feelin feverish........

hey
aww kya howa?
yeh mein bhi kuch tik nahi hoon. :(

awww rani what up with u?

hey ruby! im good
how r u? lol we r chattin atm! :p
HE is fine!

awww rest rani :)

haha awwwwwwww loool i knw
hehehe
greatt hehe

hehehe yeah ruby!
take care byee! ;)

hmmmm.....dunno how i feel right now....its kinda confusing....dont know who to believe in..............hmmmm

Laagi laagi laagi, laagi laagi laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, laagi laagi laagi
Prem dhun laagi

Laagi laagi laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi

Ek dard hai ek pyaas hai
Ek ajnabi ehsaas hai
Ek dard hai ek pyaas hai
Ek ajnabi ehsaas hai

Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi

Hawa, kali, ghata ko bhi hai teri justujoo
Sili sili sili si lage teri khushboo
Tera tera tera aks hai mere rubaroo
Mere mere mere dil ko hai teri aarzoo
Dilbar haseen mere dilnashin
Main gum huwa tujh mein kahin
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi

Tere tere tere naam ka pyala pee liya
Teri teri teri yaad ka lamha jee liya
Ghari ghari ghari har ghari pagal hai jiya
Teri teri teri teer ne zakhmi kar diya
Is ghao mein aaram hai khamosh mein to ram hai
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi

Ek dard hai ek pyaas hai
Ek ajnabi ehsaas hai
Ek dard hai ek pyaas hai
Ek ajnabi ehsaas hai

Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi
Laagi laagi laagi, prem dhun laagi

teri yaad yaad - 4
teri yaad yaad - 4
pade sang jeena hai jasbaad yaar
koi aaye na tere baad yaar
har waqt kambhakt tadpaaye
teri yaad yaad - 4
teri yaad yaad - 4

jahaan bhi gaya main sanam tujhko paya
mere sang hamesha raha tera saaya
aankhon mein khwaab seene mein dard
hothon pe sirf hai teri baat - 3
pade sang jeena hai jasbaad yaar
koi aaye na tere baad yaar
har waqt kambhakt tadpaaye
teri yaad yaad - 4
teri yaad yaad - 4

falak pe - 2 chaand jab aata hai
tera hi - 2 tasavvur lata hai
dil ki deewar pe tu hi tu
rag rag mein tu bahe mere saath - 3
pade sang jeena hai jasbaad yaar
koi aaye na tere baad yaar
har waqt kambhakt tadpaaye
teri yaad yaad - 4
teri yaad yaad - 4

everyone writing out music in their journalll hehheheheheh
am going to as well heheh

ADIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

how are ya...hows life..................do i have jiju now??????????????????

Okie before I post this, I want to say to anyone who reads this- DONT ASK ME WHATS WRONG dont get me wrong....I just dont want anyone to bother with my thoughts, feelings, mood swings and emotions. And Im just not telling it to anyone... I cant post this on hi5 or msn space coz my cuzzie (Rashnan) will read this and will make a big fuss about it! I cant write this in my journal at home just incase mum/my sis/my dad goes in my room and finds my journal and starts reading it- then they will make a big fuss about...will make me talk to them about this....will try to reason me out....which will only result in tension. Theres already tension at home...my uni (how many units should i take this sem coz we all might be going to Bombay in Arpil)...my sisters wedding tension...reallies tension...papa has high sugar...mum has high BP...my sis is stressed at work and I have my own problems...plus my parents have already suffered alot last year....nomore this time round.....so thats way im posting this here so that noone -well almost noone can read this and try to reason me....so pliz....

Who am I? Aditi? Kaun Aditi? sometimes i dont even feel that i exist...sometimes i space out for more than few mins and wen i snap back...i dont even know who i am and where i am.....sometimes i cant even feel my own heartbeat....sometimes my body goes so limp ....sometimes i hold my own breath for few seconds and wen i realize wat im doing i let go...freaky huh...Sometimes i dont even feel that im alive.......just breathing.....I have stopped living for myself three months ago....I have forgiven everyone and anyone who have hurted me so much....I did that for my inner peace who knows wen my heart will really stop beating...I just want to break all my ties with everyone....I just wanna be left alone...by myself....I dont want to cry anymore....it hurts sometimes...sometimes it doesnt...like this morning i was crying i didnt even know i was crying wen tears rolled down my cheeks then i knew it.....

Even my studies...im not doin it for myself...its for my parents....Im goin to study and become an accountant not for myself but for my parents....im sick of showing everyone that im really happy from the outside wen deep inside i dont feel a thing...I have to be strong and happy coz its my sisters wedding, coz shes happy...after beinging through hell last year..coz my parents are very -happy their older daughter is getting married....rishta honewala hai doosare ghar mein....I have vowed to myself that i will give my parents all the happiness they deserve...to give them a better life...and wateva they want...coz from now on mine living for them...not for myself....i have lived for myself for the past 19years....now nomore....

He was telling me last night about this chick he knows in college and how she didnt talk to him wen he arrived late to class how they talked for ages how they got kicked out of the orientation coz they were making so much noise lol....how he might like her but he doesnt know if she just wants to be his frd or more than frds but he doesnt know how to ask her and wanted my help....I dont know wat happened to me....i gave in and started crying....he asked me wats wrong...i just said u know wats wrong n i hung up...he rang me again...i was just crying he asked me again wats wrong adi? i hung up he rang again...he goes dont hang up again okie..now tell me wats wrong....i was like y r u asking me to help huh...he goes coz u're my frd and i hung up...he rang again...and told me to stop crying and talk to him....i told him i love him...he goes i know u do...but i told u so many times i cant give u wat u want...i asked wat do i want? he goes ME...i asked him y not? he goes u know how i am ...u know wat i do...u know wat im like....and still u love me? i was like yeah i still love u...he goes big deal...i said yeah big deal for me....not for u...i know....he then goes fine wat r u doing twr? im coming over to ur house and asking ur parents to get us married...and if they say yes i will marry u no matter wat...i said to him noone will be at home in the day he goes shaam ko they will na..then i'll come and ask them...i said no not now my sisters getting married after wat she has been thru i dont want to ruin everything...he goes kyun ek saath do do shaadiya nahi ho sakti kya? tum to aapne parents ko mere baree mein to baata bhi nahi sakti...and ur saying u love me...kya tum baata sakti ho aapne parents ki maine kaun hoon...u dont even know wat love means....
he then goes i still love her...kya tum ban sakti ho uski tarha? i just cried and cried....i then asked him y did u come into my life huh? why???? he goes timepass...more tears...he goes if u didnt stop crying i swear i will hang up on u and never ever talk to u again! he goes timepass...more tears...he goes if u didnt stop crying i swear i will hang up on u and never ever talk to u again! he then goes look adi ur just takin our relationship too seriously....i didnt believe him! i was just crying...i told him i know wat love means...more than u do...he then goes fine okie i have to go now i need to sleep i have college twr...i was like no dont...he goes fine im giving u 5 seconds say wat u want to say 1...2...3...see u dont even have anything to say...bye adi..i said no dont...he then goes then talk! fine u have nothing to say...bye he hung up...i rang him back...i said im sorry...mujhe kuch samjh mein nahi aata ki maine kya karu....he goes she never used to cry no matter how much i used to yell at her....he goes dont cry pliz...just dont cry...it just makes me really angry...I do love you...but i have a goal in my life which i want to achieve no matter how...i said to him...can u do me a favor he goes haan kya...i said to him kill me...just kill me...he goes kya main tumhe killer dekhai deta hoon pagal! i said to him im sick of living like this...i just want this pain to end so kill me....he goes ADI dont talk like that pliz...and i hung up....i stayed up for awhile crying and i dont know wen i feel asleep...
Meera ne bhi krishna ji se bahut pyaar kiya tha...Radha ne bhi...Rukmani aur Satyabama ne bhi....phir krishna ji mere saath aisa kyun kar rahe hai....kya yeh meri galti hai ki main hindu hoon....kya yeh meri galti hai ki woh kuch aur hai? kya yeh meri galti hai ki main usse bahut pyaar karti hoon? maybe it is...

Hey sweety!

I have done everything a person would do on this earth...make frds..go to school...finish primary school, finish high school..to go uni or college get their diploma/degree/masters ..work...lie to ppl...make others happy...be jealous...be happy...travel around the world...have crushes..fall in love...break someones heart...get ur own heart broken...get hurt...try to take revenge lol...love someone deeply....get depressed...try to kill urself....break a bone...nearly die....everything....sirf baaki raha- Shaadi karna...have kids...i guess he gave me that too for a day....i was with him whole day...lol cleanned his room...helped him with his car...looked after a kid...it was just perfect...me n him....it was just like a dream come true...so now i have nothing holding me back....i've got nothing to live for...for myself that is...i really hope if i get married i settle in india...coz there i have noone...its perfect a new place a fresh start..then i will live for my hubby n his family...

Adi di,
I really dont know what to say. Reading all this brought tears to my own eyes. It really did. Very emotional. I want to ask you what's wrong but you said not to so I will respect that and I wont ask you anything. I hope you feel better soon jaan. I love you very much and I dont want anything to happen to you. I know it's hard but I want you to always remain happy. =) You really mean a lot to me and I can't see you hurt in any way. My life feels almost the same as yours. I'm been living 16 years of my life. But in happiness? I dont know...Sometimes I even cry without knowing. I guess all these hardships are part of life. I know how you feel and what your going through.
I just want to say you're a part of my life now and I'll always be there for you. We may not know each other personally but that doesn't matter. We share a special bond together and we love each other and that's what counts. I consider you an elder didi to me. I love you with all my heart and all I wish is for you to be happy. It may be tough jaan but my happiness lies in yours. If you're not happy neither can I be happy. We may be miles away in reality but you're always close to my heart always, every minute of my life. I want you to know how much I love you and care for you. You mean the world to me. You are my older sister, and I myself not having one consider you to be my real older sister who can help me and give me advice whenever I need it. Life hasnt been going smoothly for me either. Something bad always has to happen and I dont know why. I cry, I laugh, I'm filled with emotions. Outside I show happiness and inside I cry my heart out. =(
Sometimes I hate myself and wish I was never born; sometimes I love myself...But there's one thing I'm thankful for that cant change no matter what. I'm thankful for life...Even though it's not the best life, even though its hard, I'm thankful I have gotten the opportunity to live it. It's a gift and I enjoy it because you only get one chance.
Adi di you dont have to listen to me but I want to be of help. Maybe this guy isn't worth it. I mean you love him so much lekin he doesn't care kya? Kyun? He seems sweet at times but other times he doesnt. I just want you to always be happy and if this guy is someone who will make you happy then I have no problem. But think. Just think hard. Is he the right guy? I dont know much about him so I cant really say much more. But you should know how he is...And I can understand nobody can control your love for someone. If Aman ever did that to me (I mean dumped me) I would also consider killing myself. Because he means the world to me. I can't live a second without him. I just pray that our long relationship goes well forever. We have our fights, we have our love...Sometimes he gets me so angry that I hate him...But deep inside I love him and he loves me..I pray ke hum dono ki jodi humesha sukhi rahe. He always makes me happy.
Adi di I have a reason I'm telling you all this and I hope you dont mind me telling you. Again I'm saying this again...I want you to be happy always. Tumhari khushi meri khushi hai. And whether you believe that or not its true. Honestly after reading your posts I started crying..And not just some tears...I actually bursted out crying. Mom was like what's wrong and I simply said "nothing."
Well I hope you didn't mind me writing all this but the bottom line is that I love you dearly and I always want you to smile =)...If not for yourself then for me, for your family, for everyone around you that loves you. I love you Adi di. You are my badhi behan which I will never ever forget until I die...And even after I die I will always remember you. If anything shall happen to me promise me that you will always smile. I love you loads jaan. Take care and I miss you.
Rani

Hey Maleeha Sweety....wow thanks for the siggies...there are awesome! :) loved them! mwah thanks...

Rani,
I wish that i wasnt born either....i have made my parents go hell alot of time....i just dont want them to be ashamed coz of me...but sometimes things i do ...i put them down...and hate that....so im just sick of living like this...im just waiting for the day wen my heart stops beating and im gone forever! if that doesnt happen....i swear i will kill myself....

Everyone says that rani...everyone...that hes not worth it...i tried to explain that to myself as well...didnt work...I just simply love him more than anything...I dont care wat he does -sometimes...but then i have to make myself understand that im just being selfish....let him do wat he wants....so I just dont want to listen to anyone anymore...im sorry but thats my decision...i just want to sort this out myself...and writing helps....dont worry ur aman will never do anything to u... :)

Yes I wish the same. I mean it would have been better to have been peaceful then to live life like this. But sometimes I feel that by having a life we are blessed. We dont get this opportunity every day. It comes once in a lifetime. I also dont want my parents to get ashamed of me. They are my everything. They have made me what I am today. It is with their support that I'm standing today. Adi di I do the same sometimes too. I put them down and I do the most stupidest things. And when I look back at that I just feel like killing myself right then. But I guess my family, my friends, my emotions stop me from doing that. I think..What will my family do without me? How much suffering will I give them? What will my friends think? Those questions haunt me and hold me back. Adi di before I came to these forums I was like you...Always talking about killing myself..But after I came here things changed. Adi di just think...Is killing yourself going to get you anywhere? Think about your parents, your family, your friends...Imagine what they would go through. Killing is not the solution. I honestly dont know why I'm saying this because even I feel like I dont want to live anymore.

I know Adi di how hard it is to forget a guy that you love dearly. I'm not saying its easy. But will this guy really make you happy and take care of you for the rest of your life? You have to think that. Well its your life and its all up to you what you want to do with it. I just wanted to share my thoughts. When I read your posts I just couldnt hold myself back from replying. I hope you dont mind me writing. Take it easy di. I hope things will eventually get better sooner or later.
I'm praying Aman doesnt do anything...=)

With mine....i dont think anyone will miss me...all my life i have given things...but for the past two years wen i wanted something....i never got it...is that fair??? im ashamed of myself...my parents have forgiven me coz they love me...my frds have done the same thing...but still im not in peace u know y? coz i know where im heading and wat i am doing...this time round my parents wont forgive me....they told me that they were ashamed in me three months ago....so i dont think it will matter them at all...i have broken off all my ties...nothing attaches me anymore....even at home...i love my parents but im constantly arguing with them reason- so that they can alteast hate me a lil....im glad my sis is getting married...atleast she'll be happy....i dont deserve anything.....life is wonderful...i know..i have experienced it....but now life for me is just nothing.....i pray to krishna ji that he gives everyone wat they want and take me away.....but i guess hes not listening to me anymore...

Dont think that no one will miss you. You are saying that because of certain situations in your life. Trust me...Even sometimes I feel the same way. You may not know it but there are many people that will miss you. No that is not fair...But then again when is life ever fair? Di I'm also ashamed of myself and just like you my parents have forgiven me because they love me. And even with me also my friends have forgiven me. Your parents will forgive you Adi di. They will. Kitne dher tak narak rehege? They may be ashamed of you but that doesnt mean they dont love you or they dont care for you. Trust me my parents are almost the same. They are still talking about things I've done years ago. I have arguments with my parents almost everyday and it hurts me to argue with them but sometimes they just dont understand my life and what I'm going through. I work hard, I try to please them as much as I can but sometimes I'm a failure. Issme meri kya ghalti hai? I try very hard to keep them happy. Adi di your parents can't hate you no matter what you do. No matter how angry you make them they will never hate you. You may have those times when you think that they hate you so much but in their hearts they love you very much. Dont say you dont deserve anything. You deserve a lot in life. No Di never say that you want to go away. Life may come at a stage when you wish that but I cant bear to hear you say that. It hurts me, it troubles me. I dont know what's going on with your life but I...
*Cries*
Sorry I just had to cry. I will not be able to live without talking to you. You may think I'm stupid to have an attachment to someone I havent seen personally but I know you well enough to say that your a sweet person and I cant live without you. Adi di dont talk negative things. It hurts me. I am now constantly worried about you very much. I dont know what to do...=(

dont worry rani.....u dont know wat im in to...and i cant get out of it....my life always will be imcompelete....always...either i get wat i want or i die....i cant keep everyone happy! then again...wats the point....anyway tc rani i gtg got headache...need to help mum bye..tc:)

maine mehendi lagaya tha....khub rang chada tha sunday ko...par aab...rang pheeka hogaya....just like my life....

dont worry rani.....u dont know wat im in to...and i cant get out of it....my life always will be imcompelete....always...either i get wat i want or i die....i cant keep everyone happy! then again...wats the point....anyway tc rani i gtg got headache...need to help mum bye..tc:)

Yes I really dont know what you're going through but I dont want anything to happen to you. I love you loads and I want you to know that. Dont die or think about it. =( Even I cant keep everyone happy no matter how hard I try.
Ok well bye jaan. Take care. Dont think too much. Take rest. Bye jaan. Love you! :)

yo jiya piya wats happening... get ready im coming over to ur house on sunday :D
i wannnt sweeeets this time and yh make sure u tell jiji not make dinner we
will make it ourselves lool :p

awww wow tell her i sed hiiiiiiii

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Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentines Day to u too rani...hey ruby!

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Happy Valentines day to u too sneha :)

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hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii adiiiiiiiiiiiiii long tie no talk
hope u havnt forgotton me how u doing? and how ur is preparation going?

hey ruby...im good! how r u? awww no i havent forgotten u :D
prep is goin good.....so tiring